FUGUE

sometimes i just feel like running away from it all

forget everything

start anew

start fresh

tabula rasa

forget everything that ever went wrong in my life, move to a place no one knows me and start over

create my life and personality from scratch, but learning from the mistakes in my past

wouldn't that be nice?

no one talking about you, the mistakes you've made; no one blaming you; no one giving a damn that you might commit the same mistakes again

but then i realize: who will i turn to (except YHWH) when i need someone; who will care for me; whom will i care for?

can i be sure that i've learned from the past and that i'll be better?

dunno

Walter H. Miller, in his psychosis, could be right: we're bound to our fate, our destiny.

might as well make the most out of it.

oh well...

can i start this blog all over again?